Been awhile

So yeah, I didn't ever really give much of chance in this thing, I'd like to, but some things with my RL kept me or even SL.. As of lately, to be honest, my RL has me drained physically and emotionally and not wanting to be on SL much and needing to try to make myself deal or try to separate myself from the people and things that have caused me way too much stress to the point it has messed with my sleep and dreams and even interrupts my thoughts. When I think I start to push it away, it pulls me back and makes me feel like shit all over again for caring and wanting to stop and push the cause of my hurt and stress away.. I hate feeling guilty but hell it is what it is, I guess.. These people are supposed to be my family, my flesh and blood but they only want me to care and say anything when they find it convenient for them,when they ask, not when I want to, which I have a hard time not caring for them.. Especially when something bad is going on and gets worse as time goes on. Seems new things just keep adding into my already stressful everyday life, hell, that's why I like SL, to try and "get away" from my RL stress to take a break and the fun that I've had being able to be silly and de-stress myself to forget about all the crazy for a little while.. I do miss SL and can't wait to get back on again and reconnect with everyone I love and try even doing pics again and discovering new and old sims to explore. Sorry for my vent/rant, I think doing this, in a way with some anonymity, kind of helps me. May or may not be the only time I use my blog to do this.. To Darryl, Patt, Moon, Taty, Ginna, Kat, Tay... I love and miss you guys, take care and hope to talk to/see you soon!